Two of my best friends eloped their lives last month and I couldn’t get any happier than that. They’re finally meet their “the one”, sooner than I expected. Truthfully, I was so emotional when I read the invitation because man, I can say that I basically grew up with them, especially with Hana. She was one of my first friend I made back in middle school and the only one who stick with me since 7th grade till graduate. She was the only one who remember my birthday back in 8th grade when my other friends didn’t even know mine. I was pulling myself out from others when she was the opposite of me.
We exchanged diaries and I read it last week. They changed so much and I don’t know if I should be happy or sad. They grew up to be wonderful and religious women, unlike me. At least they still remember me.
You know, talking about marriage is a thing between girls (or women) in their 20s. So do my friends. I am bored with this topic but what can you do when entire world basically screaming this one at you? Your friends getting married, your friends get boyfriends, your friends graduated and get jobs. All of them lead to the most anticipated topic: marriage.
To be honest, I still don’t know about this.
I really want to get married at young age; when I was in elementary school (till middle school, I think) I want to get married at 20 so the age gap between me and my kids isn’t going to be big. I’m such a fan of Detective Conan and I envied Kudo and Mouri’s family back then. Yukiko and Eri look so young but they had children who were in high school. But now, I’m in my 20, boyfriend-less and job-less. My mom is working at her best to earn money for my brother’s college, my brother is busy preparing for his college life. It’s not that I want to get married now, though.
The older you become, you will understand that marriage isn’t about two people who are in love saying their vow at each other about living together forever. Marriage is about commitment, and the most important part, to bring two families together. Nowadays, marriage cannot be spelled without wedding, who has money tagged on it.
I want to graduate, get a stable job, working my ass off for money and then spend it for make up, books, clothes, shoes and travelling. I want to get full scholarship to London or Holland when I hit 25. I want to have a nice apartment for my own self and adopting bunch of cute street cats. I want to meet someone that share the same life principle with me, though. But I think it’s unnecessary to find it now. Maybe if I found someone attractive enough, I will chase him lol but for now I haven’t meet him. The idea of spending half (or more) life time with someone is scaring me, I don’t know. Is it possible to find someone like that?
That’s why I think it’s not necessary to bring marriage topic at my age, when we can do so much than getting married. It’s not like I hate young marriage though; it’s wonderful but maybe it’s not for me.
Even though I know, deep down, I want to settle down with someone I love.
But not now.